I’m going to make this quick because I may or may not have approximately an hour to do any sort of writing. Both my kids are napping at the same time, which seems like a miracle these days.
One of my critique group partners just had her second baby. She’s still writing. She’s still planning on querying in the next couple months. And I couldn’t help thinking, “Geez, I suck. I had my second baby and he’s six months old and I still don’t get writing done. Writing? What’s that? I suck at time management and I suck at writing in general and every time I sit down to write I suck suck suck because I just can’t get anything good to come shooting out my fingers. And I’ve been writing this same stupid book for seriously forever. And what the heck is wrong with me?”
And then I tell myself that this attitude is totally not fair. I shouldn’t compare myself to my friend. She’s amazing, I’m not. Okay, no…she has a totally different situation than I do. (But maybe I still suck?)
This weekend I had this epiphany that I have really got to change my attitude about everything. It’s my attitude that sucks. I am in this whiney acting-like-a-two-year-old rut: Boo hoo hoo, poor me. But I guess we all get into that sometimes, right?
But what happens when you feel like the rut has become a ravine that requires you to be this uber rock climbing machine just to get out of it?
Yeah, still working on that one. Rock climbing is hard. If that metaphor were real, I’d be dead from falling down too many times. Anyway…
I read recently on a blog…not sure which one it is now, sorry…that this writer makes a list about things she loves about her WIP. I totally need to do that, because right now I want to divorce it, kick it to the curb, permanently evict it. Ok, not really, but I want it to at least write itself and be awesome.
Something I like about my WIP:
1. The world is awesome, even if nothing else is right now.
Yeah, I know. Attitude. I’m working on it. Sigh.